The Story Of The Lovers

She was the smell of wild roses and passion, I was at all times lost in her and with her, we danced around like we were in fairytales, we found no end to our joy never seeing that fires could be quenched, we lifted each others souls until ecstasy numbed us from all pain and all reality, the strongest kind of love we’d seen was no match for our longing, she knelt to the ground and had my fill, she was my earth and moon, she was my story, she was the happiness I felt in my gut, she held all that was true and I .. I was at all times lost. 

Lovers Painting by Ulyana Linenko

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My Lost Lover & I

What have we known about love dear one?

We were just kids when we were sold a dream
A hope that fulfilled every longing
That solved every problem in the universe
But here we are, stuck in a cube, imprisoned by the thing that was promised to make us
Wrestling purpose and pleasure
Seeking definition and affirmation
Only to fall short.
Anger brewing. Hope deterred.
Dreams forsaken.

Here I am in a straightjacket in this room my love
I come running after you, and you tease me with your sultry beauty and elegance
Leaving me wanting, and hurting
As I am getting closer, you are staying far.

You are tethered to your inadequacies my love
Positioned in tempting providence that cannot fulfill your reality
You are raised and lowered by your expectations
And you are found starving and begging. Never receiving.

Here we are mon amour, senseless beings, in a vast universe
One that sees us as ants in the grand forest of life
Left to our own devices, feeling everything, knowing nothing
Small tokens for the pleasure of the gods.

Painting: The Lovers II, 1928 by Rene Magritte
https://www.renemagritte.org/the-lovers-2.jsp

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A Stoics Prayer

God, grant me a clear vision to see my reality as it truly is,
To feel the wind in my hair,
The bright sun on my brown skin,
To know and feel my past and future with enduring soulfulness,
Surviving uncertainty with passion and promise.

Grant me fairness and wisdom,
To behold love not as I imagine it,
But love as it comes, imperfect and normal.
Help me to see my neighbor in all their ugliness, yet in it, find my own humanity,
A shared consequence of our mutual existence,
Ruined yet magical.

Grant me that I may see, with these eyes, the colours in the trees more clearly and attentively,
The colourful tones in the roses and bushes, the places perhaps one dares not look.
Help me to see the deep & dreadful waters of the Atlantic with a clear and renewed view,
A view of my mortality and that of my keen.
My significant insignificance in the presence of such great a marvel.

Grant me that I may look beyond the telescope and see with clarity that I am but an ant in the grand forest of life.
Grant me that I may look closely on this day, and see, that it has been afforded me to gratefully acknowledge it,
And in it find mirrors, reflecting my flawed yet acceptable existence.
Beholding this very day again and again, to find beauty, wisdom & grace.
To spend on this day, all that it requires and deserves, with no tomorrows guaranteed.

Grant me therefore wisdom and courage.

(Painting – Birth of Eve by Harmonia Rosales, 2018)

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4. The Paradox of Love

Ganymede

My Love
I love the way you colour the rigid tracks across your beautiful skin to leave me speechless
I love the way you, for a moment, leave me breathless
My storms calm
Yet I count the cost
My Love
I love you for the myriad of reasons traced through time
Through wars and famines
Rescued by time itself into yielding unknowns and mysteries
Heroes of yesteryear, sent to retell the same odyssey, death or life
My Moon
I love the way your rays tarry me along the path of dreams
Cold
Persistent
Proud
All of eternity cannot contain this stuff of dreams
The passion in the deep
The turning page of a story untold
The one in a paradigm
The paradox, changing and remaining
The one of love.

Yours, Jupiter.

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Angels

Imagine it was angels we saw instead of birds,
That, it was their gaze we took for granted,
How they would glide over the oceans and mountains.
Aware of our awe,
Their brown skin apparent and their glow transformative.
Imagine we would know they came to see us from heaven,
They, our kin, would be reachable and kind,
Holding us also in their gaze with awe and hope,
Hope for love and hope for kinship,
Imagine it was indeed angels we would see instead of birds.
Would we always behold with inspiration,
Would our gaze grow cold,
Would we see a sky full of strange beings,
Would our unknowing be apparent,
A wonder that once was.
Another sky full of extinction.

Imagine with me, if angels were known and beheld.

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3. Jupiter, my love.

Oh my love
You have devoured many before you
Are you so cruel that you need me to wish peril upon myself
You say come close
It is not triumph to love you only to know death
I will not exist knowing your strange entitlement
Can you love me any other way my love?
I don’t know
My love feels like weakness

Alas. I cannot look away
Watch me dance
I cannot dance any other way

Is there no other? Can I look upon no other?
Am I truly lost?

Ganymede

Jupiter..
Was that you?
You roar and thunder.
But I hear a whisper.
Call me again.
I will respond.

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